Within The Calm

I was watching natgeo today,

and i saw some pictures of the hurricanes that raged HK or wherever,

the pictures were taken by the satellites that hovered over the hurricane,

and,

sumthin occured to me,

the picture shows calmness,

stillness,

and yet I turn on CNN and I see the destruction,

the aftermath,

the bodies floating among the debris,

the terrified expression that was of the survivors,

the crying child lying beside her dead parents,

like the hurricane,

its fallacy to trust the emotions that you observe,

I observe,

but I always wonder what lies beneath,

to catch the faint sigh of despair,

to trace the outline of one's facial features,

to notice the signs that betrays the mask that is worn,

and ultimately unveiling the emotions within.

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McWiggle : s

52nd

So as citizen of this country,

I should post sumthin that is sorta relevant to the recent 52nd celebration of Merdeka Day,

It might be boring but as usual its important for us to know,

I've read and watched the news,

filled with advertisements regarding the upcoming day,

simultaneously projecting a message of unity,

A unity among races,

I mean like,

is that even possible,

I read about Najib's speech in the news,

he was mainly speaking bout unity and such,

what he means is that,

one of the main hindrances of our country actually progressing forward and improving,

is the lack of unity,

He understands the situation,

he acknowledges that the situation exists,

but he cant "walk the talk",

ya know what im sayin??

IF they want 1malaysia,

at the very least, the least that I ask of the current ruling party,

Umno,

to at least DO WHAT U SAID U WERE GONNA DO,

I mean like,

Numbah one,

MCA, MIC, and all the the so-called subdivisions of Umno,

Its like,

'aww i wanna promote 1malaysia, i wanna u to wanna hug indians,chinese and everyone"

IF SO,

why do they Instigate racism by creating invisible divisions,

chinese=MCA

indian=MIC

Why dont everyone just coexist within the party?

no barriers of any sort,

or limitations,

or unfair advantages,

What I,

a citizen of Malaysia,

want is,

for,

UMNO = chinese,indian,malay,iban,kadazan,penan, etc.

Practise what U preach,

and trust will soon follow.

McWiggle : )

Tun Fuad Story IV

I begin to wonder,

to think,

to imagine,

That maybe,

maybe I should,

and the subsequent events that will happen if I ever did,

Pull the trigger,

Pop the question,

Swallow the pill,

or whatever

I could see the faces of my classmates,

each one with a puzzled look,

not yet finished with my explanation,

with which they suddenly burst into uproar,

as I concluded,

"Why the hell dint u ask for her number??"

"Why, Why ,Why does it have to be like this"

"I bet she was annoyed by you"

" Was she hot?? Cmon.. at least gimme the size of the twins?"

"OMG"

they were convincing me that I had actually wasted a chance,

and I,

could not have agreed more,

on the incourageous behaviour that was of me,

angered at what I was,

what was unchangeble/unalterable,

I had pointed out to myself that one was born with the emotions and behaviours that were to be included in sumone until his/hers last breath,

School went by numbly,

It was gonna be one of those days again,

when I was always deep in my mind debating with myself,

yet,

the endless and constant circles of dialogue that I subjected myself to,

feelings of unworthiness surfaced,

I wanted to get out of school,

it was one of my main depressants that frequently contributed to me neglecting my studies,

irony?

smiling sinisterly at myself,

and instantly sinking into the gloom seconds afterwards,

the end of school came,

and I was further left alone in my own state of self-debating,

watching people go by,

estimating bra-sizes,

swirling my tea and watching in awe at the ice melting away,

I was mostly squinting,

the sun glaring at the traffic,

after givin up hope on my bus remembering me,

the bus came,

and my self-contained world abruptly ended.

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To Be Continued

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Haha.

I seriously dont know hw to finish the story.

shit

McWiggle : )

Writer's Block

Static.....

unfortunately im running out of ideas to write on my blog,

and umm,

that means I might update less,

sumtimes only one update per week,

and mind is currently working 24/7 just thinkin about stuff,

so it kinda leaves my creative side with less than it was usually offered,

sooo........

I might get some ideas after the 2nd term holiday which is in August/September,

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Today we did sum dissection of mice and hamsters,

I can honestly say it was kinda brutal,

especially the ones dissecting hamsters,

its was like a scene from a gore movie,

blood everywhere,

knives dulled from cutting through flesh and bone,

surgical gloves stained with the internal fluids of the victim,

skinning,

deboning,

de-braining,

Violent?

Inhuman?

Evil?

I kinda feel that way too,

but what of the hundreds of livestock that we consume like..

like water?

I think I have an objective now,

somewhere in the near future,

I will slaughter a chicken, a cow,and probably sum wild boar,

before I start eating anymore meat,

Just to make sure I know and understand,

the constant brutality that animals experience,

Idk why,

but I have to do it sometime soon.

McWiggle : )